Fucked up house...

[Jake]

So I live with a bunch of retarded fuckheads who have no clue whatsoever about the world at large.

I basicaly hate these fucking tards.... But it's where I find myself right now at this moment, although it's only for a couple more weeks.... Anyway,

I get home tonight after a long day at work (I'm a painter and I've been up and down ladders all day)

One of my roomate's brothers (who's been staying with us for the past month) comes up to me as I walk in the door and asks if he can use my phone. My battery is dead I tell him (fuckin A... He's knocking on my door right now again as I type this)...

He says he needs to use the phone and he starts crying... I ask him whats wrong... He says my roomate (his fuckhead piece of shit, literal fat ass brother ...270# with an ass that looks like a ledge... Literaly this guys ass walks three feet behind him and you could set a beer on it) choked him out...

Spencer (my roomate) then comes flying out of his room and him and Ben (roomates bro who's huge himself) start swinging...

Blood fucking everywhere....

Yelling, screaming...

I'm in my room (this shit went down like 10 minutes ago)... now they're banging on my door.......

Fuck this shit.......

Any of you ever room with people you could't stand??

I told them I'm not getting involved and that I just got home from a long day.

... Fuckheads.

Sad part is my roomate's (with the ledge ass) bro is super cool.

Ledge ass should take some life lessons (not to mention how to deal with chicks... Telling a girl "you really are a stupid bitch" is not in the players handbook last I checked) from his younger brother...

Who's covered in blood right now.

Fuckin A... I hate fuckheads.

[shawnsegler]

Just out of curiosity...the emptyflower forum is for forum members 21 and over. Are you?

S- just curious.

[Jake]

I'm 41...

What the fuck? You ever live in the hood.... Or do you just pose??

Roomie's bro going to the hospital now.

Something's broken.

I guess you never see this kind of stuff in real life do ya.... Just in fantasy land huh?

Poser.

[shawnsegler]

I used to live right next to the Haight Street OC projects right before they got tore down. That doesn't really make me all gangsta though.

Just sounds a differnt sort of drama than I'm living through at 40, man.

Sorry to be a big poser on your thread.

S- keep it real, homie

[Jake]

I'm NOT the one involved in the drama....

Just what I cam home to.

Real Violence.

[shawnsegler]

Sounds like a bummer.

S

[Jake]

No doubt.

I hate being sucked into shit like this....And I refuse to be.

Violence for some of these fuckheads I know... Is all THEY know.

Cheers Shawn, I didn't mean to be a dick to you.... Kind of hard when this shit is flying all around me.

Cheers brutha!

I hope for peace for all of us... For some... That will never happen though.

Keep rockin man!

[Chris Fleming]

Not the same situation but this sounds like some parties I've been at. Where you're just trying to watch a kick boxing match or a movie or whatever and people in the next room start fighting and acting insane. You're the only sane person around so guess who people try to get to sort everything out. Hate that shit.

Hang in there.

Keep yo head up, cuz it's all a set up.

[Jake]

Thanks Chris!

Being dirt poor fucking sucks.... Like all the masters before us.......

Hard labor, shitty living conditions... And a skill that very few people could really give a shit about at the end of the day.

Stay in school kids... Stay in school.

[cerebus]

Jake, dude! You're 41 and still ivin' like that? I don't blame Segs for askin' how old you are. That sounds like a college living situation. Man, I don't know what you do for a livin' (or if I too will be livin' like that at 41... hope not... ), but you need to re-structure yer life bro...

[Jake]

Brutha Cerebus...

I know, I know...

I'm poor as fuck.

I used to have money ( a lot) but perhaps sub-conciuosly I didn't want it... Who knows???

I've lived and trained in asia and all over the states.... With some seriously bad-ass mutha fucka's for free...

(maybe I lived and trained poor in a previous life??... Who knows??)

I've got the shit loads of martial knowledge ( training for over 30 years)...

Don't know what to tell you...

I can kick ass with the best of them (been in some serious street fights, and other altercations)...

But it doesn't seem to mean shit.

Maybe though there is light on the horizon.... Don't want to say what right now... But there might be an opportunity to break into the seminar circuit (with a known author who can really do it and maybe it will give me the opportunity to meet some of you guys soon) ... We'll see.

Brutha, I want to thank you for the kind words... Thank you. Very cool.

As for the living situation... We are where we are... Our own doing... Or where the universe see's fit for us now... I don't know.

There is violence in a very real, very unforgiving, very fucked up'edness all around me right now.

The negative is such a heavy weight that I doubt very many here can really understand........

It is the REAL DEAL. The shit that most people here only read about....

...And I want out.

We'll see.

Thank you again brother...

This was (where I find myself) never what I wanted.

Cheers brutha.

At least when I'm in it (a lot of times when I don't want to be)... I know what it is and what it isn't ...

Cheers bro... I'm drinking now and it works (escape)

Thanks again man... I've always dug your posts!

Cheers!!!

[TaoJoannes]

I feel you.

The place I'm staying at, I come home to the lady of the house huffing an endust can, and it's openly admitted that anything that isn't on your person is fair game to be stolen. An army of children comes through every day and eats everything in the house.

I'm working hard on fixing the situation, but it sucks.

[Ian]

Jake, just an observation/suggestion.

You obviously know how to learn something and learn it well. Evidence: your MA training.

Why not find people who have money and figure out how they make it?

I'm not talking about traditional 9-5 desk jobs and climbing the corporate ladder. You don't need degrees for this.

Look for people who make lots of money using minimal effort and commit yourself to learning THAT instead of fine-tuning your MA skillz.

Apart from porn and banter, the internet is good for one other thing: information. Shop around and find something that strikes a chord.

I think if you commit yourself to learning about wealth creation you'll go far. It won't happen overnight, but if you stick to it like you stuck to MAs, you'll kick ass.

Just sayin.

[Joe L.]

Good luck, Jake. Shit sucks when it comes to cash, and finding yourself where you do sometimes can be overwhelming.

[Dmitri]

Best of luck to you, hope you find a way outta there.