by maoshan on Sun Jul 26, 2009 6:38 pm
I expected this, but some of this is too much.
I'm making no excuses. I let my emotions get the best of me as could easily be seen by the way I even started.Personal issues have kept me hyped lately and I didn't realize how bad it's gotten. I didn't fight. All I wanted to do was pop his head off. And that's exactly what it looked like. Straight Frankenstein.
He started running even as the fight started. What was that first punch, a running strike? I literally walked right through his shit and snatched his ass in a headlock. His throat was in my hands. I started to to rip his windpipe out but I stopped, we twisted and fell. Now I don't know what ya'll thought, but my head didn't hit the ground hard at all, nor was the wind knocked out of me when we hit.
Now for the details ya'll can't see from the angle ya'll had.
When we went down, it was nothing but a struggle. Lyte couldn't do shit with me. Everything he tried didn't work. Now, I have no ground game and that's real, but nor the hell did he. Ya'll think he chocked me from ya'll's view, and all he had was my shoulder which shows his panic.
His ribs are fucked up as well, but I guess ya'll can't see that either. I'm quite aware of positions he had me in, but he didn't take advantage of any of it or he couldn't.
I burnt out when I turn him over, after that all I could do was defend. This dude didn't do nothing to me and this is obvious if you pay attention at the end. Look at us. Who looks like they've been in a fight? I sure the hell don't. Anyway, we struggled up to our feet together. he pushed off me and walked away. What the hell was that? Why didn't this dude fuck me up? Make one real decisive blow?
Then he starts jumping around like he just won a million dollars.
The truth of that shit is he was just a surprised as I was at the out come. He didn't expect to win. I was in shock. Nothing like this has ever happened to me before. This dude has nothing, no power and he's empty inside. This was a fluke.
Yeah I fucked up. I didn't win, but I didn't get fucked up either nor was there any danger of it happening. Had I used my skill and it didn't work and my shit was over come I could honestly say I lost.
But it wasn't a fight. Neither one of us did what we are known to do.
My lose comes from me and me alone. Lyte did nothing to me.
Bottom line,
I'm back in the lab because something shorted out.I have to correct the mind/body connection. My stress level is high, Hell I don't even recognize myself as I watch the clip.
As for the rest of this stuff, BT distancing himself etc,etc...
Look my people were pissed off as they had every right to be, but we don't have a shallow relationship. Most of the people in our circle have been training etc...together for almost 20yrs now. While I felt bad at the outcome, my people reached out to me. It is what it is, life goes on.
Now to make myself clear,it's not over. This is personal as I said from the beginning. I have not made my point which I still am going to. This might be entertainment for ya'll who now want to criticize etc...but This is not no compitition for me,he dissed me from jump and now it's a matter of honor. The clip I made, I still stand by.I want a lesson. I sure didn't receive one that day beyond the one I taught myself.
Again, I apologize for letting down all my brothers. It should not have happened like this. All I can do now is redeem myself and I will.
This is all I'm going to say on the topic, no shit talking, just get the job done.
Peace