@ededede:im sorry if i seem to be setting the bar just a wee bit too high. i wouldnt expect myself to immediately be accepted by anybody or anyone. I dont think of any CMAist like some person resembling a deadly,elderly, mystifying kung-fu master in an old wuxia film, rather to keep that fantasy superficial rubbish elsewhere other than my mind.
I just thought to be provided with some help. what i "hope" for is to be given a chance by anybody, regardless of style, so long as the passion and quality is in the heart of the person who would be interested in teaching by any manner.
for those who dont teach out in the comfort of the public, find it much more enriching and focused if a handful or fewer are given an opportunity. it offers for the students if not more for the teacher to have that same enjoyment rather than being tuckered out by a school of students set on a daily basis, whilst more students gradually step in,and they might find it a bit more stressful to involve themselves, and although instructors step in, sometimes it might fall a bit short based on their own experience,perception,etc. and it'll be even harder for the student to immerse themselves, and getting the rhythm of movements, with eventually having them drop out, and now this is my viewpoint so feel free to give some criticism on this, i speak on behalf of personal experiences.
i have Sudan Jeffers in my area, and nothing more would be better but to be a student, but right now my finances are kicking me in the shins.
i dont want to settle myself in a corner and go in a roundabout argument. all i can give you is my word and the question that im asking. im just hoping there's no hard feelings? please.