Quigga wrote:You two are madly in love! Each one thinking higher of themselves than the other party yet no one having the grace of just letting the other's words dissipate into silence.
Have done that before, and he found me on FB and did his little bait and switch thing. we actually had a nice chat and was cool I think.. Not that we weren't as we had put things to bed. I don't want to hold grudges, believe me. It got me thinking about RSF again and as I'm on holiday I have more free time for FB and social media like this. The point is I don't personally dislike him, I don't know him personally. When I said I didn't like him; he more or less encapsulates what I don't like about parts of martial arts, and elements in the tai chi community. At least some aspects of his attitude at times and some of the things he says. Mainly it comes across as a kind of snobbery.. In terms of personality, you may have a point in so much I think we may be fairly alike; so maybe we are having some weird love hate thing going on.. Ask him ? He's been "on me" lately wanting to understand my understanding. I find that idea odd, because it's an impossibility. But I actually do understand where he's coming from; trying to glean knowledge from others. So It's not like I want to carry on being mean or something.. not on purpose. But I do find some of his tact annoying and I've explained why.
We all have plenty of books on our shelf I imagine; the Yang family qigong has been published for years. I have a copy I have not opened in years.. I have done so much "internal work" over the years I barely think about what I'm doing when I'm doing it anymore - I mean obviously sometimes each session I run my checklist, get into the feeling and I'm there.. Or some exercise I haven't done for a while and so on. Like everything really. Also having had various teachers, my practice has changed and progressed and I now use a specific Neigong as my main one and shared where it can be found. As well as other cool internal exercises to boot. Its martial related and it's great. What's not to like?
If I wanted to teach it or write about it it would take me some effort in the sense that I like to do things justice as far as possible. But it's already there in print! Rather than write it off the bat because some guy asked me off the internet. It's quite a few pages long in the book! It's just odd to me. There's tons of books by names in IMA that have written these things down for us already, loads of teachers teaching it. My understanding is neither here not there as far as I'm concerned.. It's for me to know and share when and where I see fit. Not demanded for by someone else.. I'm sorry but it pisses me off. When I refuse I get put downs and insults in return. If you or anyone condones that then you just don't really get it for whatever reason. But whatever I don't want to make a mountain out of what is really a little molehill. I just hopes he hears what i'm saying and accepts it. And drops the condescension, because i didn't start that but I do know how to carry things on if I want to.. with bells and whistles for effect. Anyway, Have you not been entertained? Of course you have. We aim to please.
That's all. Let the silence wash over us.